The Anonymous Writer's Notebook

Is your SUMMER over?

©2016 TheAnonymousWritersNotebook

      April of this year, I posted a blog about the start of summer in the philly… Talks about SOME of the famous beaches in the Philippines. How visitors enjoy their stay here and why Filipinos are so delighted of the country.

One of the beaches that I included there is CAGBALETE. Just a few weeks ago, I myself visited the place with some of my friends and discovered how beautiful the island is.

One of the resort owners in Lamon Bay (a large bay in the southern part of Luzon Island in the Philippines) happened to be our friend and offered us a tour in Pansacola Beach in Cagbalete whose owner happened to be his cousin.

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Pansacola Beach is a 40-minute travel by boat from Mauban Port. The beach resort almost certainly has the widest beachfront compared to other beach resorts in Cagbalete.

You just have to be there early, or you will have to walk a lot during low tide.

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Its white sand and very clear water gave us a strong desire of recommending the place to other people and to help them advertise the island.

Life in Cagbalete is very simple. We stayed here overnight and we really enjoyed the place and the company of each other because we weren’t able to use our cellphones for a long time.

There are some cottages that you can rent which provide you air-conditioned rooms. There are some small and large tables that you can rent as well if you would wish to stay and use a tent overnight.

Unfortunately, we were not able to rent a cottage since we came late so we all decided to sleep in a tent (P300 per tent). Glad we stayed there and we all experienced how difficult it is to stay in a tent unprepared.

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What made us love the place, even more, is when we looked for a store to buy something but since there are only a few numbers of stores in the area, we had to walk to the next town and saw how clean the place is.

Most of the stores in the island do not sell hard booze and cigars. (Beer is available at some stores though). You better make sure you have it with you on your way to the island. Granted that you have forgotten it, find some young locals playing or just hanging out, wasting much of their time walking there. You can ask them to buy some items for you, just give them P20.00 or so. They save money for their school “baon”.

There are also some locals selling souvenirs which cost a little, ranging from P10.00 to P150.00. Come on don’t be a jerk! Buy at least 3 pieces. It helps them feed their families.

At night, you will get to watch fire dancers performing for all the guests in a very loud music that can even make you dance, followed by fireworks.

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The heat of the sun the whole day was scorching. But everything was all worth the stay.

Thank you PANSACOLA BEACH, we’d love to visit the place again.

     So is your SUMMER over? Make sure to end it right and visit PANSACOLA BEACH RESORT in CAGBALETE.

 

Thank you Artystafoto for the photos that you provided us during our trip. Till our next adventure!

 

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“EARTH” Summer Lovin’

©2016 TheAnonymousWritersNotebook

     Here comes SUMMER in the Philippines! One of the TROPICAL countries on EARTH! How do Filipinos enjoy the heat of the sun in the Philly? How can they stand the mugginess like as if their country is so close to the sun? Right at this moment, the temperature ranges from 30-37°C. Can you just imagine how hot it is in the Philly? But most travelers still prefer to go to this tropical country because of its beautiful places.

     There are many virgin islands in this country that only a few people have already visited. And of course, others are the most famous beaches such as Boracay, Cebu, Bohol, etc.

     Let’s take a look at some of the beautiful shots of the tourist spots in the Philly.

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Apo Reef Natural Park Sablayan Occidental Mindoro.

An island where you can see thousands of coral reefs, blue water, and white sand.

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The very famous Cebu and Bohol beaches, where most tourists visit to enjoy delicious food and amazing sceneries.

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Boracay Philippines, one of the tourist spots in this country where most Filipinos and travelers visit not just in summer but all year round. Ugh, regardless of the weather.

It is very famous for having its white cold sand even on the hottest season of the year.

That even some couple choose this as their venue for their beach wedding.

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Burias Group of Islands is one of the major islands in Masbate which has a very clear water and has a lot of diving spots.

Cagbalete used to be an island where only the locals were the only people who get to visit the place, then it became known to people in the cities and other provinces because of its clear water.

Calaguas is a group of islands in the Pacific under the hegemony of the town of Vinzons, Province of Camarines Norte

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Caramoan is located in the lower eastern part of Camarines Sur in Bicol. Having it’s clear blue water and white warmth sand, people enjoy coming here often to experience the beautiful sceneries.

 

 

 

 

 

And who will not fall in love with this beautiful Island of El Nido in Palawan.

     Now, these are just some of the beautiful islands in the Philippines and some of the reasons why most natives stay in their country AND…  one of the main reasons why most tourists enjoy visiting this tropical country despite its very hot weather.

     Come visit the Philippines and bask in one of the most amazing tropical countries in the world!

Decided to use this for my weekly photo challenge, because I want everybody to see how beautiful the Philippines is. #itsmorefuninthephilippines

Love Stories

Didn’t we almost have it all.. The Sumilon Island story.. (Cebu, Philippines)

©2016 TheAnonymousWritersNotebook

“We sometimes fight for love, because we choose to fight for it — Even if we know that we will never win it..”

-TheAnonymousWriter-

 

………………………..It was 10 in the evening when I decided to take a bath. I wonder why I have been so tired the whole day when all I did was just to sit and work in the office. Took the towel and headed on to the bathroom.

Slowly dipped into the hot tub and.. ugh.. feels great. This is what I always do when I am tired… I would always choose to stay in the tub for an hour or two when I am tired or stressed at work than to go out and party. Staring at the ceiling with random things on my mind. What might have been? What could have been? What if? Shoulda, woulda, coulda. “brain drain” yes! I think I need a break. Took me some time to have finally decided on what to do…

Done! And yeah. okay, that’s it. Now, where did I put my laptop?? Where to?? Hmmm with or without someone?

“Jenny? Would you like to come with me tomorrow?Planning to go to Cebu….Oh! Okay.. I’ll see you next time then.”

“Hey Julie what’s up! You free tomorrow? Would you like to unwind? Let’s book a flight to Cebu tomorrow!!!! Ugh, I see. Okay. Maybe next time..”

“Pete!!! Want to go boy hunting tomorrow? Let’s fly to Cebu! It’ll be fun… Oh sure! You gay! Let’s catch up soon..”

Alright then, I guess it’s going to be just me… Again.. The hardest part of being single.

Booked! 10 am, March 8, 2016. See you tomorrow Cebu! Goodnight everyone…

7 in the morning… prepped up and headed to the airport…

“Good morning ladies and gentlemen! Welcome aboard. Flight 507 bound for Cebu. Please fasten your seatbelt and refrain from smoking while the NO SMOKING sign is on. From Captain Lopez and the crew, it is our pleasure to serve you today. If there is anything you need to make your flight enjoyable, please let us know. Thank you.”

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“Oh Dear Lord, thank you for this day. Thank you for making my life awesome. I may not be that happy..for now.. because I am single but I sure am grateful for everything that you provide me. I am very blessed with family and everything that I have. Thank you for all of this. Please bless this flight.”

Took my headset, played a song and I fell into sleep.

 

“Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to Cebu. Local time is 11:15 in the morning. For your safety and comfort, please remain seated with your seatbelt fastened until the Captain turns off the Fasten your seatbelt sign. This will indicate the sign that we have already parked at the gate and that is it safe for you to move about.

Please check around your seat for any belongings you may have brought on board with you and please use caution when opening the overhead bins, as heavy articles may have shifted around during the flight.

If you require deplaning assistance, please remain seated until all other passengers have already deplaned and an attendant will come to you and will be pleased to assist you.

On behalf of Cebu Pacific, Captain Lopez and his crew, Thank you for flying with us. We are all looking forward to seeing you again in your next flight. Have a great day ahead and enjoy your vacation.”

Oh great! Finally. When I was about to deplane, I accidentally dropped my cell phone. Oh crap! ugh. So clumsy!

“Here..”  and smiled…

“Oh! Why.. Thank you.” A guy suddenly handed me my phone. Who is he? He looks cute though. Anyway, I got off the plane and headed to pick up my luggage.

12:00 in the afternoon…

“I think it’s better to have lunch first. I need to eat first.” 

Inhale..exhale… This is life! I have never felt this for a long time… Okay.. So, I better go to the hotel first and I’ll have lunch there.

A van came to pick me up and drive me to the hotel. I had a reservation at The Shang Mactan.

On my way to the hotel, the driver asked.

“Ma’am welcome to Cebu. Kayo lang po ba? Taga saan po kayo?” (Ma’am, welcome to Cebu, are you alone? Where are you from?”

“Yes, ako lang kuya.” (Yes, I’m alone on this trip.” I answered. He’s very nice to ask and chat with me to make me feel at ease while traveling to the hotel.

“Ma’am andito na po tayo. Sana po mag enjoy po kayo dito sa Cebu” (Ma’am we just arrived at the hotel. I hope you enjoy your stay here”

“Sure. Thanks!” Gave him a tip and smiled at him.

“Hi! Reservation for Atty. Yasiera Mae Rondillo.” 

“Hi, Atty.! Welcome to Shang Mactan. Here’s the key to your deluxe room 407. Enjoy your stay here!”

Smiled and headed to my room right away. As I lay me down to bed, I thought of what the driver asked me a while ago. “Are you alone on this trip?”  I wonder why most people ask if a person goes on a trip alone. What is wrong with going on a trip alone? Anyhow, welcome to Cebu Yassy.. Let’s do this!

Took a quick shower and prepped up for today’s activity. White tee goes with a pair of denim shorts and hmm how about a nude pair of gladiator sandals?! Alright, that would do. Oh and… hmm my hat! My co-worker Liza gave this to me two months ago. So where to first? Oh, my I haven’t eaten yet. I almost forgot. Locked the hotel room and went to the reception. “Hi, I wonder if there is someone available who can assist me for today’s trip?” “Of course Atty. please have a seat and I will call the one available to accompany you today.” “Thank you”

After a couple of minutes. “Ma’am, your driver has arrived. Just tell him the places that you would like to visit or see. And he will take you there. Have fun!”

Thanked the guard and winked at him. When I was about to approach the van, I saw the driver smiling at me. Opened the door and said, “Hello Ma’am ako po ulit ito.” (Hello, Ma’am it’s me again) “Oh hello sir! It’s nice to see you again today.” “Ma’am saan nyo po gusto muna magpunta?”(Ma’am where would like to go first?) 

“Sir, right at this moment? I actually do not have any idea. I haven’t eaten anything yet though. But I don’t really know what to do first… I just want to.. I just want to take a break… I don’t want to think of anything..”

“Sige po ma’am, alam ko na po kung saan ko kayo unang dadalin” (Alright ma’am, I think I already know where you need to go first” And he smiled.

I do not know if I would feel bad or scared of where this man could take me to, but all I can feel that time was, he is a good person.

It took us a little time before heading on to the place.  Feels like the day is getting a little boring. I dunno if it’s because I still am tired or just because I am overwhelmed with how good Cebu is. Anyhow, I think the driver felt that I am a little quiet and he asked me some questions.

“Ma’am wag nyo pong mamasamain ang aking tanong. Sa tagal ko na po sa trabahong ito, pang-walo pa lang po kayo sa taong naihatid ko ng solo dito sa Cebu, wala po ba kayong boyfriend? asawa? pamilya? Pasensya na po. Napansin ko lang po na para kayong malungkot” (Ma’am I hope you don’t mind. I’ ve been working in this field for a long time and you’re the 8th person that I have served here going on a trip alone. Don’t you have a boyfriend? husband? family? I am sorry ma’am, I just noticed that it seems like you are a little sad)”

Staring outside the window of the car, I smiled and answered. “Ok lang ako kuya, sanay akong mag isa. Madalas nagbabakasyon ako kasama ng pamilya, mga kaibigan. Pero mas madalas solo. Biglaan na plano lagi. Nag eenjoy naman ako so far.” (I’m okay sir. I’m used to it. I usually spend my vacation with my family, close friends. But most of the time, I go alone. Unplanned. But I I enjoy it so far.)

He just gave me a quick smile while nodding. I bet he believed I really am enjoying my trip alone.

A few minutes later…

“Ma’am, andito na po tayo. Sasakay po kayo ng bangka. Mga 30-40 minutes po. Hindi nyo po pagsisihan ang lugar na ito. Sana’y ma enjoy nyo po ang tour ninyo. Welcome to SUMILON ISLAND ma’am. (Ma’am, we just arrived. You will take a boat ride for 30-40 minutes. You won’t regret this trip ma’am. I hope you’ll be able to enjoy this tour. Welcome to SUMILON ISLAND ma’am)

When as I was about to pick up my things, he opened the door of the van and took my bags.

“Wow! Just wow!”

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The first time I had a glance at it, I fell in love right away. It suddenly changed my mood. Thanked the driver for taking me here. And smiled.

Inhale.. Exhale.. Wow.. This is life…

Took the boat ride and embraced each and every minute of what I am seeing… After 30-40 minutes, we have finally arrived at Sumilon Island.

Wow. Thank you, Lord, for this wonderful view. You are just amazing.

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Looked for a spot and unrolled my tube skirt given by my mom when she visited Boracay a year ago and sat down.

Wow! I still can’t believe there is a spot here in the Philippines like this. Oh well, ME-TIME starts now.

 

 

Took my tank top and shorts off. Wore my sunglasses, sat down and thought of random things…

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“Excuse me? Yas? Yasiera Mae? Atty. Rondillo? The famous Yassy Rondi of batch 1996? Jerry!! Jerry Cecillo of batch 1995. Remember? The slim boy..? Ronie’s best friend?.. Hmm, The bully guy…Okay.. I think I talk too much..?”

Giggled. “But of course! I remember you. I will never forget you.”

 

 

FLASHBACK! August of 2001…

“I know! hahaha But baby, I think it is better if we just hang out with them later?! What do you think?”

“Yeehee, you want to spend more time with me?!”

“YOU WISH! hahaha kiddin! Of course, and you have been hanging out with them since last Tuesday because of basketball. Let’s watch a movie first… please, please, please?” 

“Alright, baby. You win!” 

Back to the beach.. 2016…

“What’s up? How are you?”

“All good! How are you? We never heard anything about you hmm after the issue.”He said

“Oh! Yeah. Right after I graduated from Law, I went back to the US and stayed there for a couple of years. Until my grandmother died in 2006, so I went back home here. I took the bar exam in 2008 and started working in 2009 in Makati. I now have my law firm.” I answered.

“Okay wait! So you mean, you’ve been here since 2006?”

“Yes.”

“What the! Wait, wait! Are you with someone? Family? Friends? Husband? Boyfriend?”  He asked.

Giggled. “This is the second time someone asked me if I am with someone on this trip. And the same answer, I am alone on this trip. And still single.”

“For real?? Okay. Ugh. I have no idea, what this is all about, or why this is happening. But is it okay, if I invite you for dinner later?”

“I don’t see anything wrong with that?” I answered.

“Great! Where do you stay?”

“I am staying at Shang mactan, this is supposed to be a day trip, but I might just look for a lodging here then I will just, I dunno, whatever the plan is later, just let me know.”

“Cool! Can I have your number? catch up maybe?”

“Sure! It’s 09178925763”

“I’ll call you later! See you! I’ll just get back to the friends and I’ll call you later!” 

“Alright. Laters!” Smiled and started playing some songs on my phone. Wondered, what was it all about?

FLASHBACK.. November of 2004…

“I know Ronnie! But, listen, okay. it was my fault.I know it was my fault. Come on baby, why can’t you just forgive me. I mean, it wasn’t really a big deal. I know that hurt your feelings, but do you really think I would do that? Do you really think I can do that? Or do you really think I WILL DO THAT?? Of course not! It’s just that, I think, you are stressed out at work and your mom is a little annoying these days, and that you lost your wallet. I just.. I just think you need to spend time alone. And that I think, you are experiencing these things because of me..”

“Yassy? Please. Can you just… Can you just leave me alone?”

“What is wrong with you!? It wasn’t intentional! I mean, please baby, okay I am so sorry. I never really wanted to leave. I won’t do that. I was just thinking about you and that maybe your life became a mess when we started dating. You lost your wallet, you forgot your monthly report at work, you lost the game twice, your car’s a mess, you.. you.. your life just became different when I came. “

“Look! We have been dating for almost 3 months now. We act like as if we really are a couple, we may not be committed to each other anymore but I learned to love you. I am used to seeing you every day, you are aware that I ain’t ready for any relationship yet, since the day Jenny died. It has always been very traumatic every time I get to fall in love with a person because I don’t want the person to leave me. And here you are, telling me that you will leave me for a moment only because you think that you are the bad luck in my life! What the fuck yassy!”

“Baby, all I want you to say is.. STAY..” I cried. 

BEACH.. 2016..

“Hi, Yassy! Jerry here. I’ll see you at 7ish? I’ll just prep up..Same spot..And let’s decide there..” 

I stayed at a coffee shop somewhere there. A small spot where I can stay to check my email. Okay. I guess I will have to go there now. And wait for Jerry.

As I was approaching the spot where Jerry saw me this noon, there was this guy walking towards me. Familiar. Heart’s beating fast. Sweating. I think I know him, I’m just not sure.

“Hey, Yassy.” Jerry greeted me. “Are you okay? Seems like you are looking for someone from a distance?” He asked.

“Ugh. Nah, I.. I just thought I..Never mind..”

“Hi, Miss..” I suddenly heard a familiar voice. And looked behind me. Shocked.

“Yassy, I hope you don’t mind. I also invited him here because I’m actually with him and the rest of the gang.”

I was still surprised and cannot even say a word. It’s the guy from the past. It’s him. Everything stopped for a moment.

FLASHBACK.. December 2004..

“Jerry?! It’s okay. I am on the verge of giving up even if I don’t want to. But, I.. I think it’s time. I mean, I have done my part. I never wanted to give up on him. I learned to love him. I am happy with him. I don’t understand why he can’t even forgive me. It’s not really a big deal. Been saying sorry for the past 3 weeks. He doesn’t even respond to my messages. He doesn’t even answer my calls. I have texted him many times. I give up! Or. No, I never really wanted to. But he’s pushing me away. And I have been suffering from this pain since the day he decided to let go of me. Yes, we are not committed to each other. But I know and I can feel that he has already fallen in love. Or maybe, maybe it’s just me who thinks that way. And I think it’s time, to save some for myself.”

BEACH 2016…

“Yassy? Yassy? Is everything okay?”

“Oh! Yeah. I’m sorry. I was just. I was just surprised. Yeah! Of course! So what’s the plan?”  I was so surprised that I got caught staring at him. After 12 years… After 12 freaking years… I never thought I’d still see this guy. Indeed, a blast from the past!

“Yeah. Okay, where d’you wanna go?” Jerry asked.

“I actually have no idea. Maybe we can just find a spot and hang out there.” I suggested.

“Okay, here. I’ll leave you guys here, and I’ll buy some beer… If.. It’s fine with you guys? Ronnie? Yassy?”

“Ah yeah of course. It’s…It’s okay.” I answered quickly.

“Oh sure. Yes. Of course. I’d love to. I mean, yeah no, no worries.” Ronnie said.

Jerry left us and there was silence for a while.

“So,” both of us said, trying to open up a convo.

“Ah yeah, you first.” He said

“No, no you first,” I said.

“Ah, no go ahead! You first.”

“Ugh. So yeah. What’s ah, what’s up? It’s been for more than a decade since I last saw you. How’s life?”

“Yeah. More than a decade now… Since the day I died twice.” He answered.

Confused. “I’m sorry?”

“Yes. The day you I pushed you away, I died. And the day you went to the US… I died twice.”

I stood up right away. I never really wanted to talk about it. But he took my hand.

“Yassy! Please. Give me a chance. Listen first.”

That moment, I wanted to cry, like as if, it took me back from the past. I felt the same pain I felt 12 years ago.

“Yassy, the day I decided to let go of you..”

FLASHBACK.. Last week of November in 2004..

“Dude! Ano ba kaseng problema mo? Ang babaw kase tsong. Nag sorry naman na si Yassy. Ano pa bang problema dun?” (Dude! What is wrong with you? It’s so petty! Yassy already said sorry. What else do you want?)

“Jerry, hindi mo naiintindihan. Hayaan mo na sya.” (Jerry, you will never understand. Just let her.)

“Dude! She’s already having a hard time. She’s been crying every day. Goes out a lot drinking! She will take her exams this week. You have to understand. The person is taking up law!” 

BEACH.. 2016.. 

“That day, Jerry kept on telling me about how things are getting really difficult for you already. And I didn’t mind.”

TEARS want to fall from my eyes that very moment while he was telling me about what happened.

“I asked him not to butt into the situation. It was my choice. It was my choice to let go of you. Because I was afraid. I was afraid that I might just not be able to handle it again, if… If you suddenly leave me. It was hard for me to do it too. See you were taking up Law that time. Your life was so okay. Your life was fun and never dull. Until I came. My life was dull and boring.. Until you came. You put colors to my life. I was so happy… I was so happy that led me to become so afraid of dying again. I was so afraid that I might commit suicide if I’d get to fall in love more than the way I felt with Jenny. See when she died from the car accident, I almost killed myself for not eating almost every day. But you pulled me up and helped me recover.”

“Ronnie? I don’t think this is the right time to talk about this. I’m sorry” 

For some reason, I wanted to stay and listen to him but my mind is telling me no… No, Yassy. Leave now. I left while tears are falling from my eyes.

“Yassy!!! Yassy wait!!!” 

“Dude!? Wha’ what happened? Why’d she leave? Dude what did you do? Ugh. you idiot! Wait up! Hold these bottles, I’ll chase her…………… ugh no. Go chase her! You! ugh! Go! Now!”

“Yassy! Yassy wait!.. Yassy please… Let’s talk. I know that you have already moved on.. that you are already happy now, having a good life, good job, your own house, your own car, a lucky husband…I just..”

“I.. don’t.. have.. a husband..” I whispered.

“Huh? Wai’what? boyfriend maybe?” he asked. “Yassy, even for just a minute. Just give me a chance.”

“Ok. I will give you 5 minutes to explain even if it won’t make any sense anymore.”

“Thank you! Thank you! I am sorry. It was my bad. I was afraid that time. I was afraid, not knowing that being afraid can cause me more pain. I never thought of trusting you instead.” 

“Okay. Can I leave now?” I didn’t know what else to say, turned my back and just left.

Found a small bar.. looked for a spot and ordered a couple of booze…

BACKGROUND..

Singer: “Remember when we held on in the rain, the nights we almost lost it.. Once again, we can take the night into tomorrow… Living on feelings… Touching you I feel it, all again..” 

FLASHBACK..December 2004..

“Dude! Ano oras ang flight?! Pucha naman bat ngayon mo lang sinabi!!!! Pare naman!!! Alam mo namang ilang araw ko na syang tinawagan at di nga sinasagot ang mga tawag at text ko! Pati helper nila tinatawagan ko hindi ako sinasagot!” (Dude! What time is her flight?! Fuck why didn’t you tell me earlier?! Dude! You are very well aware that I have been calling her and texting her even the helper! But I am receiving no answers at all!)

BEACH.. 2016..

“Is this seat taken?” 

“Oh hi Jerry, no it’s okay. Beer?” I offered.

“He’s been looking for you since you left him there… Ugh no. He has been looking for you since 2004.. A bottle of beer, please! You want anything?” 

“No, I’m good. Thank you.” Took a deep breath… “Jerry? What happened when I left, back in 2004?”

“When I saw you here this noon, everything came back in a snap..I was overwhelmed for my friend. I was surprised. I was shocked. But happy at the same time.”

“Happy?” I asked.

“Yes. Yassy? God has his own reasons why you are here, why he is here, why we are all here today. It has been what? 10? 12 years ago? When you told me that you were leaving for the States and asked me not to tell him, I never did, until the day of your flight. I never wanted to be unfair with you so I didn’t tell him.. RIGHT AWAY… I never wanted to be unfair with my best friend. So I told him, but on the day of your flight. Yassy, when he decided to leave you, he was actually suffering from the pain that Jenny left him, his mom was suffering from cancer.”

“HUH? WHY DIDN’T HE..” I had to butt in! I was surprised!

“No, wait, listen first.. his dad left them, he was so angry that time. He never really wanted to tell you, because you were taking up law that time. He was so down not knowing that you can be someone who can save him from losing himself. He actually thought of you and not himself. He never really wanted to be a burden for you. He was afraid of losing another person when everybody else seems to be like leaving. You were his confidant, yes, but he was afraid that you might just leave him if you’d learn all the issues he was trying to solve that time. He didn’t know what to do. When you told him that you will leave him, he knew then, that you will never do it. But he was afraid that you might. That took him a long time to realize. When you were trying to send him messages, he was always with me. He was so down. He misses you every day, he wanted to send you messages every day, respond to your messages everyday, but..”

“But he DIDN’T!” Crying

“He didn’t because he was just.. he was just not sure if you will still accept him..”

“What the fuck Jerry! Did you guys really think I won’t be able to handle that kind of situation? His life was dull and boring before we started dating! He was so down because Jenny just died. What other tests would you guys like me to try?”

“Yes, and it was too late when he realized it. The day of your flight, I called him. He was still sleeping that time because he used to go out every day, drinking with friends, always getting home late and drunk. It was 1sh in the afternoon, and your flight was 6 in the evening. Yas? He went to the airport. He tried his luck that maybe..just maybe he can still see you and can still say sorry. But you have already checked in. “

SURPRISED. Heart’s beating so fast.

“He tried his best to communicate with you while you were away. But you were not answering his emails. He called your mom. He called your best friend Tina. He called your friends and they all said, just let her be. He didn’t stop stalking you, until he saw a photo with a PhilAm guy at a party that says With the best boyfee in the world

“Wai’, Wha’ Ho’.. Oh my God! With the best boyfee in the world. Yes! The best boyfriend.. boy – friend.. guy friend… You know?! It never meant I was committed! ugh”

“Oh for real?! stupid. hahaha!”

“Why would I joke around?! The problem with your best friend is – he assumes all the time. He assumes that I will leave him, he assumes that I have already forgotten him and that I committed myself with someone in the US right after a few months huh?! For real? tsk”  I explained.

“That time, his mom died of cancer, his dad went back for them. His sister left for Dubai. You see, he felt like everybody’s gonna leave him.” Shaking his head. “I think he’s gay!” He whispered.

“No, but kidding aside, Yas? He never stopped loving you. He has been blaming his attitude since the day you left. He has decided to stop working in 2005 of August. He was always drunk. Getting into trouble all the time, rushing him to the hospital twice a month. His life became miserable. I remember back in 2006. “

FLASHBACK.. February of 2006..

Police car… Siren of the ambulance…

“FUCK PARE! Ano ba kaseng problema mo! Hindi ka ba napapagod makipag away! Sawang sawa na mga tao isalba ka! Nakakaawa na si tito!” (Fuck Dude! What is the matter with you? Aren’t you getting tired of this shit? People are getting tired of saving you from this! I feel bad for you dad!)

Few hours later. Room 203

Knock..knock..

Jerry: “How are you feeling? Feeling better?!” Punch!

Ronnie: “Ouch! Siraulo ka! Wag mo nga akong suntukin ang sakit pa kaya!” (Ouch! Crazy! Don’t punch me you, idiot! It is still painful!.. But you know what dude? What is even more painful than this? It was my life in 2004. When Yassy left. I thought her life is gonna be better off without me. Yes, I guess. Maybe she’s a lawyer now. Her life is awesome, She has an American BOYFEE.. ugh.. that BOYFEE.. I thought I’ll be fine without her… It even made my life miserable.”

“Ronnie, if you really want her, it’s never late! Be better. Be better than yesterday. Look at you! And Yassy is not the only girl in the world.”

“But she’s the perfect WOMAN for me. Because she’s the only one who was there for me when my life was incomplete. And I just broke her heart”

“Be better than yesterday Dude. One day, you’ll find answers. Someday..” 

BEACH.. 2016..

“Jerry? I still don’t know what to say.”

“2006, he applied for a new job. It was then when he realized that things are getting better for him. He learned. He stood up and he helped himself.”

“I am still puzzled, Jerry. Let’s call it a night?”

“Okay. Where do you stay? I’ll walk you to your hotel.”  Jerry offered.

“I stay in Shang, but tonight I’ll just find a lodging here somewhere.”

“There is a GLAMPING TENT at Blue Water resort here in Sumilon, would you like to try that? That is actually where we stay too. Don’t worry it is safe and I won’t let Ronnie bother you”

“Okay. Let’s go there now.”

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“Wow! This is cool! Anyhow, Jerry? Thank you. Thank you for today. Thank you for always being there for Ronnie, for me. Thank you for always being there for us. “

“Goodnight Yas.” And he just smiled.

It was already 1:30 in the morning and I still can’t sleep. I went out of the glamping tent and sat down. My glamping tent is next to theirs. They are just a few steps away from me. And yes, what is this all about? Why am I really here? Why are we all here? What is this all about?

Laid down and fell asleep. Yes. Outside the glamping tent. >.<

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“Oh Shit! The sun is shining! Ugh! I actually fell asleep outside the tent! Gosh.”

Stretch.. stretch…

 

 

“Oh! Why! What!? What is this?”

 

Found a blue towel on top of me. Smiled. And yeah. He is still the sweetest.

“Morning Yassy!” 

Looked at me and smiled. “Morning Jerry”.

“Breakfast? Come with us. Ronnie, prepared something for the gang.” He invited me to join them for breakfast.

And yeah. I joined them.

At the table…

“Morning Yas” Ronnie greeted me. 

I smiled and said, “Morning”

“Miss, coffee?” Ronnie offered.

“Wala naman lason to? Thank you.” (No poison? Thank You.)Giggled.

And everything started there… AGAIN. That time, I thought of giving him another chance. Maybe, just maybe… There is a reason… Why we got the chance to talk again.

Right after breakfast, I took a break under the tree next to my glamping. Where the shade is so inviting…

He sat next to me. And smiled. I smiled back.

“So what’s keeping you busy?” I initiated a topic.

“Well, I ah, I now manage my own business. As you know, it has been my dream to put up my own coffee shop. Have it at the metro. If you have a lot of time, you can visit anytime”.

“Okay, so are you inviting me to have coffee or to just visit your shop?” Giggled.

“Haha both?”  He answered.

“Let’s see. I’ll let you know when I get back to Manila.”

“And how’d I know? I do not have your number..”  He said.

“Well, I can give it to you.. But I’ll think of it first”  Giggled again.

“Yassy? I just want to say sorry about..”

“Ronnie? It’s okay. Forget about it”

He smiled. And I smiled back.

“Guys, I have to get back to my hotel now. It’s nice seeing you all.”

“Yassy, when are you going back to Manila?” Jerry asked.

“I’ll be going back to Manila tomorrow. I have a client meeting on Monday”  I answered.

“Oh Great! Alright! What time is your flight back to Manila?”  Jerry asked.

“4ish?”

“I see. What’s your number? So we can meet you there or visit you maybe?” Ronnie asked.

Gave my number to Ronnie and headed back to Shang.

Ring.. Ring..

“Hello..” 

“Hi, Atty. Good morning! Your client meeting at 10 in the morning is canceled today.”

My secretary called me.

“Oh! Why?”

“Mrs. Reyes said, she can’t come today. She needs to accompany her daughter at the hospital. She asked me if we can reschedule the meeting on Thursday?”

“Ahuh. I see. Alright then, kindly check my schedule on Thursday and just talk to her about it. Is there any other schedule for today?”

“Well, you actually asked me not to schedule anything today, since you just got back from Cebu last night, except for the one with Mrs. Reyes which is canceled.”

“Alright. I’ll see you tomorrow. Thank you”

When I was about to get back to sleep..Ring! Ring!

“Hel-lo..”

“Yassy?” It’s a guy. Voice is familiar.

“Ugh. Hello. Yeah? Who’s this?”

“Jerry here! Seems like you didn’t save my number?! haha You free today?”

“Oh Hi!.. Well fortunately yes. The meeting is canceled. What’s up?”

“Great! Let’s hang out! Let’s visit Ronnie’s coffee shop today”

I was a bit shaky, stood up and answered “Ugh. Okay. Where is it again?”

“No, you don’t have to drive yourself there. Will pick you up at 2ish?” 

“I see, okay. See you guys later!”

I was a bit excited! What to wear? Okay. Calm down Yassy.. Everything’s gonna be fine. Breathe in, breathe out.

Tic toc tic toc.. I got myself prepped up at 1ish.

1 message received!

“Hi Yas. OTW”

Ding Dong!

“Hi!”

“Oh. Hi!”  Surprised. It’s Jerry. Only Jerry.

“Shall we?” 

On our way to the shop, he was a bit quiet. It’s not the same.

“Are you okay?” I asked.

“Oh yes. Of course.”  He answered. “Yas?” Follow up question. “How long have you been single?”

“Hahaha and what is up with that question? Oh well, I’ve never had gotten into a relationship since 2004”

“FOR REAL??? He really broke your heart.”

“Not really. It helped me in many ways anyway. I achieved a lot of things and time is just right I think.”

“I see. And are you ready to fall in love again?”

“Maybe?”

“Alright! Here we are. After you Madame”

Inhale, exhale…

“Hi!” He opened the door for us. Cheek to cheek. Blush.

“Here, this table is really reserved for a special guest like you. What would you like to have? Everything is for free.” Ronnie said.

“Wow! I have been here a thousand times! But this is the first time, you reserved this table and everything is for free! Okay, I want to have coffee of the day please.” Jerry said, cracking a joke.

“Well, I would like to try whichever is the best here”

“Coming up madame,” He said.

He personally prepared the drinks and snacks for us. While waiting, Jerry and I talked about some stuff.

Looked around, a simple girl at the cashier smiled. So I smiled back.

Ronnie, approaching our table, followed by the girl who is smiling at me.

“Yassy, I’d like to you try our coffee of the day and these sandwiches.. especially made by my wife, Rica.”

I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO SAY..

Stuttering.. “Ah, oh yes. of course, thank you! Hi, Rica? yes. Hi, I am..”

“Atty. Rondilla. The famous Atty. Yassy. Finally. It’s nice to meet you. My husband told me a lot of things about you.”

I do not know what to say. I wanted to cry, I wanted to just leave. But, she’s… She’s a nice woman. I caught Jerry looking at me, and he decided to break the ice…

“Okay! So Atty. Rondilla, they actually have here a spot which is called the SAY IT HERE tree.” Handed me some small colored papers and a colored pen.

What to write?

“Please excuse us. We just need to attend to other customers.” Rica suddenly said. Smiled and left.

“Write it there,” Jerry said. Then smiled. “I know the feeling. I know how it feels.I know what it feels like. I know how difficult it is for you to deal with the wife of the guy that you used to love. I know. I felt that”

Staring at the window. Trying to understand what he’s saying.

“I know the feeling. I have been there. Done that. The same feeling……………….. when Ronnie told me that you guys………………….. were……………….. exclusively dating…………….. a decade ago.”

SURPRISED…. to be continued…

 

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